Surro Files - Testing Time!

It's officially that time!!!!  It's the time we can't wait for, yet the time we dread.  It's the moment of truth.  Did the transfer work or did it fail?  I guess we'll know soon enough.

Belle and I had originally planned to start testing at home tomorrow (Tuesday).  We figured that would be a great start date without starting too early.  Well that plan didn't work out so well...

Late last week I was feeling great!  I was feeling slightly crampy and totally had no doubt in my mind that the transfer had worked.  Then something changed Saturday afternoon.  The crampiness stopped.  I kept thinking it might come back, but it didn't and that worried me.  Now it's been awhile since I've been in a two week wait to test (about 2-1/2 years), and I completely forgot how crazy it makes you.  You question everything you did.  You question everything you didn't do.  You question every twinge, ache, and symptom.

That being said, I caved.  I couldn't wait it out till the Tuesday goal and I tested yesterday (Sunday).  Negative.  And I tested again today.  Negative.  Strangely it makes me feel more calm to test.  At least I know one way or the other for that particular day.  I haven't lost hope.  It's still early and we still have time to get that big fat positive!  Tomorrow I have a hormone level check, then we have our beta blood pregnancy test next Tuesday.

I've got everything crossed and hoping this works out for Belle and Adam.  I don't want to let them down!!!!

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*Some of the names in this post have been changed to protect the identities of those involved in this journey*